Ok so...

While I was gone for... a While... I went through some stuff, not the type in which everything changes for a better or worse, but in a continuumn of a changing nature in which every decision started to matter completely at the same time that I... kinda don't care?

Seriously, I guess that anxiety was a real thing and not something to begin punishing myself for having. In a way I started to accept being an anxious person. Meditation helped too, who would've guessed that the practice of accepting, made me less anxious and more aware of myself.

I guess I have to do something now... Weird to be a person, or be perceived. I guess I can pull through not caring too much into the world (Even though politicians kinda wanna kill me but eh... :3). Starting with going a this again, giving coding another shot and reading more effectively. Want to get into coding because it means a lot to me right now.

So, gotta get started. With... this website.

-Z